guys~

annyeong bloggyyyy!!!!

how're u?

hehhehe i know u miss me right?teehee~

sorry,not in the right state of mind right now.

today,mmg x productive langsung.

tgk korea je keje.hahah

naseb bek dh abis english.

tp still,ad maths IA!!!!eottoke!!

ok~

regarding this entry.dont worry its just gonna be a short one :)

hahahha its not that i hv something long to talk about.

for the past few months, there were two guys who stupidly bothered my mind.

first is A.he was such a 'nice' guy.sweet talker.

like a typical girl,for some stupid reasons, i liked his sweet talks.

damn u,sweet talks!hahaahhahaha

i've been mislead,i shouldnt like him.because..he already has someone else in his heart.

im sorry but i'm feeling like a fool now ni because u acted so sweet to me n im not cool enough to ignore that.

but u used to told me that 'im single.btul2 single!'

ntahpape je.honestly, dont act sweet to a girl if u dont mean it!!!!i'll cause misunderstanding.

its official.i really hate sweet talkers with all my heart!!!!!

just when i started to open up for guys,this hateful thing happen!

i think for now,...i kinda hate guys,

second guy, J. he is so nice.

but i dragged him into a game.

i'm scared whether i've burdened him or not.

i asked R to ask him and he said he is not burdened.

lega~:)

he likes me as a friend.good,i can finally reaffirm myself too :)

i feel absolutely stupid for talking about guys!!!!!!!

i think hlovate is right.

'guys are stupid.some men too.throw rocks at them. pots n pans too!!!!'

for now, i really100x hate guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lets hope it'll change.i want to get married too~hehehe

later.taa~ :)

that day~

that day,thursday,12th may 2011!

it was my most unluckiest day~

i remember it well.why, because that's the day when my heart was shattered to pieces,(figuratively)..

i woke up late,as usual.(duh~)

went to school with rouxin.

arrived quite late to school.

we were supposed to start our chem IA today.i actually asked atin to tell the lab's person to prepare all the materials and apparatus.

i was so mad because nearly all apparatus are damaged!!grrr!

sbr je la~

but then because of that, its quite amusing to see how atin n alethea tried to cheer me up:)

love u guys :)

the second disaster was i was very mad at r for getting close to j.

Oh God, if only i know that i am going to face this horrible feeling, i should not started this game in the first place.i was like..please r..its just a game ok...

whatever..

the third thing was regarding the trip.

i'm just a minor organizer.but i think that i also deserved to know what is going on.

being a touchy, i am.

i know that maybe she is more comfortable with her because..well..they work together..

i dont know who am i to them.whatever..

just forget it n start a new life.n........just dont open up ur self too much to people because somehow they are gonna hurt u.

and the last thing is i've decided to forget him

the moment i knew he chatted with her,i knew it.

he's still one of those unforgivable sweet-talker..

guys r stupid.some men too.

throw rocks at them.pot n pans too.

-hlovate-

later.taa~ :)

dear~

bloggy dear!!!! how're u?

me?not that good,not that bad..

if u ask me what is going on in my mind right now, i wont be able to provide an answer coz i myself are not sure on what is going on in my mind right now.

if i were to be asked on what i mostly want to do now, i would say that i want to go for a vacation!! hehehe and if possible,alone..

not that i want to run from reality.its just that i want to have time for myself. although its kinda nonsense,i dont care.i want to go to a place that nobody will find me and i can be as free as possible,

hahahhaha.escapism??kinda~

hmm currently,..possible solution to this unknown feeling is maybe...i need something interesting to happen in my life right now!

shuush!!dont say IB! yes, IB is interesting..so interesting to the point that i cant help but to always think about my beloved IB life..aigoo.hahah :)

Ya Allah, Kau tolonglah hamba Mu ini. beri pedoman kepada diriku supaya aku tidak berasa kekosongan lagi. ceriakan diriku Ya Allah :) amin..

huhuhu lets hope that something interesting will occur in my life soon..lau x, i boleh mati kebosanan dgn study je ni~

hehehe till we meet again,taa~ :)

thanks fendi :)

bloggy,i told u earlier that i got to msk final for syarahan kn?

well, last week was the competition.

heheheh my title is ketamadunan pasak keamanan.

fendi helped A LOT!!!!

thanks to him r i dpt built my courage to go up there and talked in front of secondary kids yang i xbrapa suka~hahah

fendi mmg ajar sehabis baik.even the way i bce pantun pun, dye ajar.

'seroja hutan subur di Bentan.

diteman rerama terbang ceria

bahtera aman dibadai cabaran

di tangan kita nasib bahtera'

mmg try my best to dptkn his lenggok pantun.every morning dgr his voice bce pantun yg i recorded through my phone.hahahah mcm agak..pelik~hahahahahha

tried my best to hafal mati-matian.hope sgt x cuak n gugup atas stage.hahah even practiced dgn angah although kitorg competed against each other gak.hahah

on the day, i ws so nervous sbb bygkn i'm the first one to go n talk.mst r cuak.

rse mcm nk tarik diri je..tp maruah babe!!hahah egoistic i am.

mse tu mmg buat je.yg penting cpt habis.sgt glad sbb x gagap n nmpk smooth.heheheh

then the rest pun gave their speeches.

mybe Allah mudahkan perjalanan hidup isha.Alhamdulillah sgt sbb dpt 1st.mmg unexpected giler.hahahahha dh r mse price giving ceremony tertukar hadiah dpt yg third.adoi~klaka plak :)

alhamdulillah Allah berpihak pada isha. walupun i'm not that good, Allah ttp tolong isha.mybe sbb isha btul2 doa.alhamdulillah.terima kasih Ya Allah :)

isha lega semua dh abis.now ni kene focus on IB.insyaAllah:) nk fly!!!

aja aja fighting!! nisha fighting!!!woot woot!!

purple tulip!

cintaku berputik

walaupun hanya semalam kita kenali

bicaramu menyentuh hati

tiada lagi kesedihan di hati ini

tapi ku tak pasti

apa kau rasai

mungkin semua ini hanya mimpi

*cintaku di taman

penuh dengan warna

hatiku bertanya dimanakah dia

kerana ku petik satu

tulip berwarna ungu

hanya untukmu,sayangku~

pada malam itu

lidahku kelu badanku menjadi kaku

oh mata bertentangan mata

jantung berdegup hatiku rasa gembira

tapi aku malu

senyumanmu itu

memanah hati menusuk kalbu

repeat *

walaupun hanya semalam kenali

tetapi hatiku masih berkata ku tak pasti

bila kau meluahkan

kata yang ku impikan

cinta kita mula mekar sempurna

repeat*

hanya untukmu,sayangku~

credit to my beloved housemates for such an awesome song. they said that this song is specifically wrote for me because they know what is happening in my heart right now~

teehee~saranghae !

about this blog~

i will never delete this blog.

this blog is too precious for me to delete it.

so,don't worry k?

thank you to anyone who actually read this nonsense blog :) hehehe

i appreciate it :)

hmm..teehee :)

hehehhe bloggy!!!!!!!!!!!!

lme x tulis u!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!

many things are happening to me.hahaha tp i rse mcm nk wat bodo je sume bnde.

talked to amirul just now. i told him i've been feeling empty lately.

he gave me three possible reasons for that.

1) i'm too focused on study ...(i dont think this is true..)

2) i dont know what am i doing right now ..(maybe..)

3) i dont know what is the purposes of me doing things ..(most likely..)

he asked me to find purposes in life.haaha hearing that coming from him, makes me feel like an idiot.anyway,thanx for the advice,amirul. :)

oh yeah!! i got to perform my syarahan in assembly because i made it to final!!hehehe

thanx to fendi for helping me. thanx to angah, ayong n atin for supporting me!!

thank to mak,abah,adik2 for sokong akak isha!!hahahah :)

i seriously love u guys :)

doakn isha final nnt ek?

next weekend, angah akn stay kt intec for her friend's open day.atin plak kuar dgn cousin dye kot.amoi blek umh.klau i balek umh,nnt mcm menyusahkan abah n abg rafi plak.hahahaha

tgk r dlu. kalo stay kt umh zu,xpe x?hmm.kite pk dlu~

but i.m seriously feeling empty. i sincerely hope that something big and joyful will happen to me soon.please.... :)

puasa~

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

ble puasa,mst r rse ngantuk.sbr je r hari ni.

smalm abah hantar balik dr taiping ke kota damansara dari pkul 3 ptg smpai 11 mlm

hujan lebat sgt.mata abah pulak xnmpk sgt.dgn 1 wiper tibe2 rosak.isha rse risau sgt.

jd sepanjang perjalanan tu,isha x tidur.ad tidur btol2 first hour je.borak2 dgn abah, so that dye x mengantuk.

we talked about japan's tsunami,super moon,bla bla..

he said that this world dh almost reach its end dh. although there are various articles about the natural disasters that made some scientists believe that the world will meet its end at the end of 2012,we have to believe that no one else knows the exact date of Hari Kiamat but ALLAH S.W.T.

as a Muslim, i should sedar about this thing and keep on improving myself as a Muslim.

actly, i have a dream. i want to buy that cute,handy tafsir using my own money.

i will buy that.insyaAllah :)

lps abah hantar isha balik, unpacked my stuff and wat econs ia and tok essay.

pg td, dpt msg from mak, saying that abah smpai umh pkul 4 pagi.alhamdulillah selamat smpai.

rindu family maa~ :(

hari ni seniors mock exam.harap sgt dorg skor.they study really hard maa~

especially the Petronas scholars.fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insyaAllah sume dpt fly :) amin~

currently...

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online.nk tgk drama sungkyunkwan scandal tp punye la ssh.internet mcm siput maa~

sabar je r..

now ni otak tgh serabai sbnrnya.kene buat ia econs tp article trtinggal kt damansara.nk wat cmne ni.abah plak boleh anta i balik by ahad,malam isnin.

balik ni,kene start model g4.tension.

mst akan dpt result lg.lagi tension.

xnk balik.someone told me that this is just 1/6 of the real IB life.how the heck am i supposed to face the remaining 5/6?

if it is not for my parents and family,i would have just quit.

but nisha,u know u wont and u just cant do that. It is strictly prohibited to give up.try,nisha!

IB lyfe~

another day of IB lyfe just passed.

today is the other 'great' day for i got my physics's test result.

as expected,it was really bad.

i wanted to cry but i just cant.not in front of everybody.

i think the only time i ever cried loudly is in front of atin n pupu.

maybe because their kepala paling sme dgn i.

i felt like my soul has flied away during the physics class n i couldnt understand not even a word that came from mr oliver's mouth.

miss ellie called sabrina. im jealous.i wanted to have that kind of relationship with a teacher too.

but i guess its ok to have a gap with people around you, so that when they leave u,its not that hurt.

i wanted to call my parents but i dont want to bg mak worried bout me.mak,eottoke??

my financial.my damnit financial.arghhh!!! im just going to fast tomorrow~

i wanted to talk to amirul..but he's not here or there.i cant talk to him.he's busy with his own life.i cant expect him to be there for me..for i think that i am nothing to him.

i miss my home.i want to go back.

my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

hello dear bloggyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

its been a very long time right??

i want to talk a lot about my sweet 19 birthday!!!!!!

okiedokie~

my birthday is on 26th of feb <3

and first people yg wished my bfday..............my beloooooooooooovvvvvvvveeeeeeeedddddd housemates!angah,amoi n atin :)

the date,24th of feb...... amoi ad rotaract club's meeting waktu tu,so dye pun beli je kek,sbb..almaklumlah kn,we r "supposed" to study for the coming class test.angah asked me to tmn dye washing kt blakang.i pun ikut r.tgk2 amoi was there with a super-duper-crazily-delicious blueberry cake in her hand and they started to sing the birthday song :) uhukuhuk im touched la kn?? XD

the next day which was 25th of feb.i was very happy coz its friday(hari mula cuti r katakan~). n we decided to eat at IKEA and various things happened,hahahahahha!!! I still cn remember clearly the woman's face when she heard me 'moaning'!!hahahahah.ntahapeapentah~

mse on the way back to our house,i got a message asking me to free myself for the next 10 mins because " a miracle is going to happen". I was puzzled coz its from an unknown number and the clock showed that it was 10.20pm.so, i guess its not bout my bfday..then i got a few messages from that number but i ignored them coz i dont know the number~n then i got a call from amirul who is staying somewhere in Aussie right now :) totally happy maa~~~

we talked for a while and he wished me my bfday :)however since i was very happy,i couldnt really concentrated on whatever he was saying at that time and he was kinda sulky..kot..hahahahha!!sory :)

n then after that, tepat pkul 12.05am, i got a a call from my super-awesome mother!!!!hahahahahhahaha!!sgt ske XD

we talked lme r gak.i talked to my sisters n all of them actly sang me a birthday song which nearly moved me to tears.uhukuhukuhuk :)n then since all of my housemates dah tido,i puntido r awl sbb we worked mcm org giler mse sports day a day before that.i got msgs from pupu!!! and aje!!!!!!! tp i xreply sbb xde creditttttttt ;( itu sgt menyedihkn bg saya~ sy jge dpt msg drpd other transcenders gak!!hehehe miss u guys like hell,babes!!

pukul 1.35am,i got a call.dgn mamainye,i pun picked up the phone with a sexy-rocker's voice~(lame nisha,lame~)..n then a guy's voice entered my ear.he started to talked about 'do u know me?im the handsomest person in the world.bla bla bla~' n then i tye spe?rpe2nye ehsan-kun!!hhahahah

he played a bfday song using rul's guitar!!!!!!!!!wuargh,i mmg ske sgt la kn ble ad guy main gitar just for me~awww!haha XD n then i tido.zzzz

the day.i was left alone in the house for angah g jmpe her bestfriend,dayang;atin mkn2 dgn family n amoi g kluar mkn.i stayed at home for i am too lazy to move and (kononnya) nk study.hahah padahal habuk pun tarak~ dorg balek n we talked about their outings.bla bla bla. n then prizey giving ceremony!!!!!!!!!sy sgt ske!!!!amoi bg nasi goreng kampung,milo ais,n a packet of 3-in-1 milo!!!xboleh blah~hahahah tq dear!!angah plak bg a very cute orange nametag,purple pen n rm10's topup!!hhahahah!time kseh syg!atin bg bracelet yg sgt cun,jewelry's case yg sgt cun jge n she wrote me a new song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SGT SKE!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanx adeq :)

thanx guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!really appreciated it XD

while i was buzy thanking everyone for wishing my bfday on fb and phone and watching my beloved yongseo couple jjang!!!!!, atin came to me and asked me to teman her g umh zu for she borrowed something from zu,i pun dgn agk berat hati utk meninggalkan laptop,after dh g toilet dlu~pkai tdg and jacket n tunggu atin yg tgh siap2 gak.n then tetibe je bunyi loceng umh,'dingdongdingdong' repeatedly!!mcm ribut taufan je~i saw atin an amoi tgk luar n they said the stalkers kot. (lol) i amik kunci nk bkk pintu sbb blank,atin suruh n amoi standby kt belakang dgn penyodok smph.i bkk xde org,ble nk tutup blek je,"HAH!!!" trkezut beta.the beloved seniors were there XD i saw atin grinning n i know that this is the surprise.hahahahahha we laughed alot they gave mcd's food as bfday prezzie!heheheh :) i sincerely thank izzu, fudding, fendi n zu for the surprise.walaupun jntungku hampir trcabut ble dgr their 'HAH!!' earlier :)

:) sy mengucapkan jutaan berzillionan terima kasih for making my sweet 19 this sweet :)

thank you <3

love!

annyeong!!

hahahahha

look at the title. what does it tell u?

hahahah basically now, i want to write about love :)

ok, honestly i've never been in a relationship before.

but i do know the feeling of loving someone.

jujur :)

dear blog!!!

hahahahhaha

sorrry :( its been a really long time since i last came to this blog

hahahahha!n when i checked it, i realised that i dont have any follower~

hahahaha adoyai ~

ini agk menyedihkan ya.

jujur i ckp i agk happy with this fact because i know that i can truly express myself in here because there will be no one yg i know that read this my so-called diary.

malu :)

hahahahahahha

ini mmg pengakuan jujur sy XD

new diary?

annyong!!!!

hahahahahahahaha!

i just posted a post saying that i'm gonna use this blog as my so-called-diary right?

hahahahaha now i'm using it~

currently feeling so empty.

don't know why..

hahahahah maybe its because i'm lonely?

new life

hi blog!!!! its been a super duper long time!!!

i really2 miss you :)

currently as an IB student, my life is a very super duper hectic life one =.=

lots of things happened

n i hope that this blog can act as my diary too

i ad byk stories to tell you

i seriously think that this blog is the best place where i can tell everything that have been inside my heart for so long~

seriously blog, i miss u!!