Sunday, March 27, 2011

about this blog~

i will never delete this blog.
this blog is too precious for me to delete it.
so,don't worry k?
thank you to anyone who actually read this nonsense blog :) hehehe
i appreciate it :)

hmm..teehee :)

hehehhe bloggy!!!!!!!!!!!!
lme x tulis u!!!!!!!!!!!!
miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!

many things are happening to me.hahaha tp i rse mcm nk wat bodo je sume bnde.
talked to amirul just now. i told him i've been feeling empty lately.
he gave me three possible reasons for that.
1) i'm too focused on study ...(i dont think this is true..)
2) i dont know what am i doing right now ..(maybe..)
3) i dont know what is the purposes of me doing things ..(most likely..)
he asked me to find purposes in life.haaha hearing that coming from him, makes me feel like an idiot.anyway,thanx for the advice,amirul. :)

oh yeah!! i got to perform my syarahan in assembly because i made it to final!!hehehe
thanx to fendi for helping me. thanx to angah, ayong n atin for supporting me!!
thank to mak,abah,adik2 for sokong akak isha!!hahahah :)
i seriously love u guys :)
doakn isha final nnt ek?

next weekend, angah akn stay kt intec for her friend's open day.atin plak kuar dgn cousin dye kot.amoi blek umh.klau i balek umh,nnt mcm menyusahkan abah n abg rafi plak.hahahaha
tgk r dlu. kalo stay kt umh zu,xpe x?hmm.kite pk dlu~

but i.m seriously feeling empty. i sincerely hope that something big and joyful will happen to me soon.please.... :)

Monday, March 21, 2011

puasa~

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
ble puasa,mst r rse ngantuk.sbr je r hari ni.
smalm abah hantar balik dr taiping ke kota damansara dari pkul 3 ptg smpai 11 mlm
hujan lebat sgt.mata abah pulak xnmpk sgt.dgn 1 wiper tibe2 rosak.isha rse risau sgt.
jd sepanjang perjalanan tu,isha x tidur.ad tidur btol2 first hour je.borak2 dgn abah, so that dye x mengantuk.
we talked about japan's tsunami,super moon,bla bla..
he said that this world dh almost reach its end dh. although there are various articles about the natural disasters that made some scientists believe that the world will meet its end at the end of 2012,we have to believe that no one else knows the exact date of Hari Kiamat but ALLAH S.W.T.
as a Muslim, i should sedar about this thing and keep on improving myself as a Muslim.
actly, i have a dream. i want to buy that cute,handy tafsir using my own money.
i will buy that.insyaAllah :)
lps abah hantar isha balik, unpacked my stuff and wat econs ia and tok essay.
pg td, dpt msg from mak, saying that abah smpai umh pkul 4 pagi.alhamdulillah selamat smpai.
rindu family maa~ :(
hari ni seniors mock exam.harap sgt dorg skor.they study really hard maa~
especially the Petronas scholars.fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
insyaAllah sume dpt fly :) amin~


Friday, March 18, 2011

currently...

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online.nk tgk drama sungkyunkwan scandal tp punye la ssh.internet mcm siput maa~
sabar je r..
now ni otak tgh serabai sbnrnya.kene buat ia econs tp article trtinggal kt damansara.nk wat cmne ni.abah plak boleh anta i balik by ahad,malam isnin.
balik ni,kene start model g4.tension.
mst akan dpt result lg.lagi tension.

xnk balik.someone told me that this is just 1/6 of the real IB life.how the heck am i supposed to face the remaining 5/6?
if it is not for my parents and family,i would have just quit.
but nisha,u know u wont and u just cant do that. It is strictly prohibited to give up.try,nisha!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

IB lyfe~

another day of IB lyfe just passed.
today is the other 'great' day for i got my physics's test result.
as expected,it was really bad.
i wanted to cry but i just cant.not in front of everybody.
i think the only time i ever cried loudly is in front of atin n pupu.
maybe because their kepala paling sme dgn i.
i felt like my soul has flied away during the physics class n i couldnt understand not even a word that came from mr oliver's mouth.
miss ellie called sabrina. im jealous.i wanted to have that kind of relationship with a teacher too.
but i guess its ok to have a gap with people around you, so that when they leave u,its not that hurt.
i wanted to call my parents but i dont want to bg mak worried bout me.mak,eottoke??
my financial.my damnit financial.arghhh!!! im just going to fast tomorrow~
i wanted to talk to amirul..but he's not here or there.i cant talk to him.he's busy with his own life.i cant expect him to be there for me..for i think that i am nothing to him.
i miss my home.i want to go back.