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Salam bloggie :) It's been very long kn?haha Sorry for not updating you selalu. hahaha kdg2 xde mood, kdg2 x smpt. sory bloggie :3

Everytime I update you, mst ada sbb.hahahah well, you know me. I want to rant about A, now my ex. I don't care if he read this or not. I hope not because i don't really want him to know what am I thinking. But, it's ok. If Allah open his heart to read this, I know that Allah has good reasons behind that.

I knew A since Ramadhan dinner 2010. well, he doesn't noticed me i bet. When I first saw him, he's nice but too bad, his appearance was not my type. Then, I saw him again during the camp and we're in the same group. Got to know each other and i was attracted to him but i decided to never pursue him since he's such a good guy and deserve a decent girl, not me. I'm not your typical Malay girl who is shy around guys, no. I have a lot of guy friends and i am very close to them. i also have this tomboyish attitude that make me easily being friendzoned by my guy friends and I like that. Back to A. We helped each other during universities' application processes and i started to like him more. When i was absolutely sad by my bad IB result, i was driven by mad thoughts and confessed to him. Thank God, the feeling was mutual. So, we started this long distance relationship since i'm in Perak and he's in Putrajaya. Text messages and calls became frequent. We occasionally met, either me going to KL to see him or him coming to Perak to see me. He even saw me at work :)

When I got accepted to a university in Sarawak, I was very happy. Honestly, I never thought that we will have any problem because heh, we even started as a long distance couple. So, he helped, encouraged and listened to me all the time. He was a perfect boyfriend. Then, after 9 months in Sarawak, he got into a local university in Selangor, I was very happy for him. He made new friends and he's enjoying his life.

However, I realised that he's changed, a bit. When people on the phone, we can usually sense the other person's mood. When we talked on the phone, i can sense that he was not really in the mood and just did his best to bear with me. I thought i was being stupid and told myself that he's tired. I was angry at myself for thinking that. And then, I was busy for finals and we didn't contact for almost 3 weeks! I was waiting for his calls but he didn't, so i thought better not to disturb him as he was busy with his new life. But then, he was mad at me for not contacting him, not trying to call him for those 3 weeks. I did send messages. He was the one who said that he will not let me call him because a guy is the one supposed to do that. *Sigh* luckily, it was resolved neatly.There was this one girl at that time that he was always tweet with. I was happy because now, he can be friends with girls because he was not really good with girls before. He is a shy guy after all :)

One early morning, at 3 something , I got a message, asking me the possibility to remain friends even if we didn't make it. Allah knows how shocked I was. I couldn't sleep at all. Thinking what i did wrong. Did I say something bad to him? Did I hurt him without me knowing? After few messages for the next 2 days, he asked for a break up because he couldn't bear the distance. He felt like a stranger. Are u kidding me?? I loved u to death. I even wanted to get married to u. Maybe I was not good in expressing myself but hey, I said to you the magic words "i love you". Me, who hates mushiness, told you that i loved u and called u sayang. Yet u felt like s stranger?? I asked him was there ever a girl that gives him everyday's attention that I couldn't. He took freaking 40 minutes to reply no. Why so long? Why do u even need time to think if there was really no girl? And you told me that you will never disappoint me and I'm the girl that you want to grow old with. *Sigh* I was too heartbroken. I thought our bond was stronger than this. I trusted him too much.

A, I was blindly loyal to you. Of course I will forgive you, but not any time sooner. Give me time and when I'm completely forgive you, we'll be friends again. For now, don't expect me to treat you like a close friend because the wound is not yet healed. Time will heal everything. Just know that while we're together, I never thought of other guys as possible spouse, all of them are my brothers. I even bought u a T-shirt and cups for your parents. May Allah bless u and may Allah heal my heart as soon as possible because I want to be able to see you without any hard feeling. In shaa Allah.

Allah knows what's best for all of us :)

Sincerely,
Hamba Allah

blog~

Assalamulaikum and HI people!!!!!!!hahahah

Ok,now that i'm in the mood to post another one in one night, i might just go for it.

People are different. there is no way we can be exactly the same like each other. Some people use their blogs to express themselves. Some people use their blogs to tell people about their lives and gain advises and supports from them. Some people BERDAKWAH dgn blog...Alhamdulillah :) Some people use their blogs just to express their feelings, their emotions. Some people treat their blogs as their online diaries.

As for me, i definitely belong to the forth group. Using the blog to purely express my feelings and emotions, opinions. Well, i'm not that rajin to update blog selalu pun~hahahaha when the feeling is overwhelming, i honestly think that it is wise to express it somewhere. hahaha mmg nice after we told people our problems, but sometimes, writing about it makes the whole thing better for some people.

So, tq bloggie for being my...superb ear! I love u! :)

Talking about blogging...

my favourite blogger : Lautan Rabbani
http://lautanrabbani.blogspot.com/

my favourite vlogger: mat luthfi
http://www.youtube.com/user/matluthfi90

I kagum dgn these people. they voice out their opinions without hesitations but with careful cautions and nice intentions. May Allah bless them :)

Till later k,
Hamba Allah :)

everything~

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to everyone...especially my dear bloggie!!hahaha miss u :)

It has been a very long time since i last posted at least, something here. hahaha lots of things happened. And I mean it when i said a lot. Many things changed, I myself included. Whether it's for the better or for the worse, only Allah knows :)

Everyday I face something new. hahaha kalo dulu bile kena tegur or kene marah, terus down. now ni, dh lali dh~ kfc changed my life in a very big way. hahaha i can say that the whole thing about kfc is my biggest "doom" moment in my life.I have never felt so useless or stupid in my whole life before. being yelled in front of customers because of not entirely my mistakes, some of my coworkers talked bad things behind my back, accused of trying to steal someone's bf!! okay, enough! no use crying over spilled milk. although i can't really say anything to them because 1) they were intimidating me and 2) malas nak panjang2kan hal dgn mereka, it is very painful to keep everything inside. Sangat xsihat ye~hahaha so, people, hereby i would like to announce that i was a total defeated weakling at that time.

But thanks to people around me, i am climbing up! at least, that's what i'm doing.i'm doing my best.

Duduk kt umh the whole time was not really a nice thing to do. Considering my parents yg nak anak dorg ni berkerja and learn the hardships of life, people around me yang keep bangkitkan isu me working at kfc for only 5 days every single time and 'unintentionally' telling me that i was lembik!, hahahah....apa2 je r..mls nk fikir...

after one month,( lama gilee!!@//@) i minta keje again. Alhamdulillah, dengan izin Allah, dpt keje kt kedai baby PP Shoppe. Dpt gak keje kt tempat lain, but decided to work there. Its peaceful and most importantly, ada bau baby yg sangat wangi everywhere and dpt jumpa babies everyday!! hahahahha Everyday, ada je bnde baru yg i belajar. Although with some annoyance and irritation, hahaha it is still very nice to learn something new. Seriously, I need to change. Be more sensible and not easily annoyed at people's 'different' way of 'showing their care'.hhahahha :)

I love myself. not being vain, but i thought by writing here would be a new medicine to my broken heart. I want my heart to be healthy :) pain! go away!!I don't need u....maybe, i am lembik after all..

But hey, semua org ad ups and downs. jangan risau isha, nnt ko 'up' balik r tu~and kalo ko lembik pun, so what, you are human.wekk!hahaha insyaAllah :)

Indeed, above all, Allah is the only one yg betul2 memahami :) :) :) <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
till later k,
Assalamulaikum and goodbye :)

 

Yours sincerely,

Hamba Allah

this is ...scary!

Nisha, this is bad. 

what if you like him more than him liking you?????

andwehh!! nehi!!!Wuargh!!! malu gell!!!!!!!!!!

That should not happen. In the end, you just gonna hurt yourself.

so, Nisha, control your freaking feeling!!

hee, memalukan je!

till next post,

Isha

i'm not that strong :)

Assalamualaikum bloggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahhaa mcm dh lmbat je nk announce this thing but IB is overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! 16th of May ari tu. after paper econs.

bile dh abis exam, dpt result. Dengan takdir Allah S.W.T. , isha failed. dpt 30, feeling so stupid like hell.hahahah

To be completely honest, i seriously was having thoughts to kill myself for approximately 5-10 minutes. Such a fool, I am. Nangis sket kt mak. Kesian, mak risau. After all those thoughts, tetibe dpt ilham dr Allah S.W.T. utk baca Yassin supaya strong balik. After that, mmg dgn nekadnya, went to klcc and had a meeting with Kak Zahirah and En Norman. rse lega sbb xterminate. Mak minta maaf sbb mak ada gak doa supaya x g sbb xnk berjauh so soon. It's ok mak, Isha fhm :)

after meeting tu, call mak. mak pesan buat je apa isha nak today. let it all out. mak xkn restrain. Bagitau mak pasal A. hahahahahha mak happy sbb finally anak sulung dye ni dh mule fikir nk seriously view guys as other than friends or crushes. blinded by perasaan yg kacau-bilau, i confessed. Alhamdulillah the feeling is mutual. Happy :)

isha seriously tanak g btn tp mak n abah suruh.to complete my task as a Petronas scholar. Mak, Abah, Isha xkuat. nape suruh isha pegi btn gak? it was so painful but being someone with little tears (which some girls consider it cool but IT IS SO NOT COOL BECAUSE IT WAS SO PAINFUL TO NOT BE ABLE TO CRY YOUR HEART OUT), i just could not cry. I also could not say no to them. I went to the btn thingy.

all those talks about program transformasi bla bla really hurt me. many people ( i mean it when i said many) asked how o felt. people, boleh x jgn tanya soalan yg mmg dh tau jawapan? hahahahahhahaha mst r sedey. but crying is not gonna change anything. better move on cepat2 je. me? poker face? nmpk sgt xknl sgt diri isha ni. i'm not good in hiding emotions.

I was having many thoughts waktu nk attend graduation. Boleh plak si S ckp," Nisha, cbe ko consider perasaan org lain when you are making decisions?" what the f!!!! " ada pernah korg consider feelings aq when korg sume excited cite psl oversea? ad ke? " i replied with a forced smile. she said sorry. It's ok, I understand. like i said, i'm not that strong.

well, ad gak happy things yg occured in my life after result. Hikmah Allah rasanya. Next post k?

Still gaining strength,

Isha :)

guys~

annyeong bloggyyyy!!!!

how're u?

hehhehe i know u miss me right?teehee~

sorry,not in the right state of mind right now.

today,mmg x productive langsung.

tgk korea je keje.hahah

naseb bek dh abis english.

tp still,ad maths IA!!!!eottoke!!

ok~

regarding this entry.dont worry its just gonna be a short one :)

hahahha its not that i hv something long to talk about.

for the past few months, there were two guys who stupidly bothered my mind.

first is A.he was such a 'nice' guy.sweet talker.

like a typical girl,for some stupid reasons, i liked his sweet talks.

damn u,sweet talks!hahaahhahaha

i've been mislead,i shouldnt like him.because..he already has someone else in his heart.

im sorry but i'm feeling like a fool now ni because u acted so sweet to me n im not cool enough to ignore that.

but u used to told me that 'im single.btul2 single!'

ntahpape je.honestly, dont act sweet to a girl if u dont mean it!!!!i'll cause misunderstanding.

its official.i really hate sweet talkers with all my heart!!!!!

just when i started to open up for guys,this hateful thing happen!

i think for now,...i kinda hate guys,

second guy, J. he is so nice.

but i dragged him into a game.

i'm scared whether i've burdened him or not.

i asked R to ask him and he said he is not burdened.

lega~:)

he likes me as a friend.good,i can finally reaffirm myself too :)

i feel absolutely stupid for talking about guys!!!!!!!

i think hlovate is right.

'guys are stupid.some men too.throw rocks at them. pots n pans too!!!!'

for now, i really100x hate guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lets hope it'll change.i want to get married too~hehehe

later.taa~ :)

that day~

that day,thursday,12th may 2011!

it was my most unluckiest day~

i remember it well.why, because that's the day when my heart was shattered to pieces,(figuratively)..

i woke up late,as usual.(duh~)

went to school with rouxin.

arrived quite late to school.

we were supposed to start our chem IA today.i actually asked atin to tell the lab's person to prepare all the materials and apparatus.

i was so mad because nearly all apparatus are damaged!!grrr!

sbr je la~

but then because of that, its quite amusing to see how atin n alethea tried to cheer me up:)

love u guys :)

the second disaster was i was very mad at r for getting close to j.

Oh God, if only i know that i am going to face this horrible feeling, i should not started this game in the first place.i was like..please r..its just a game ok...

whatever..

the third thing was regarding the trip.

i'm just a minor organizer.but i think that i also deserved to know what is going on.

being a touchy, i am.

i know that maybe she is more comfortable with her because..well..they work together..

i dont know who am i to them.whatever..

just forget it n start a new life.n........just dont open up ur self too much to people because somehow they are gonna hurt u.

and the last thing is i've decided to forget him

the moment i knew he chatted with her,i knew it.

he's still one of those unforgivable sweet-talker..

guys r stupid.some men too.

throw rocks at them.pot n pans too.

-hlovate-

later.taa~ :)

dear~

bloggy dear!!!! how're u?

me?not that good,not that bad..

if u ask me what is going on in my mind right now, i wont be able to provide an answer coz i myself are not sure on what is going on in my mind right now.

if i were to be asked on what i mostly want to do now, i would say that i want to go for a vacation!! hehehe and if possible,alone..

not that i want to run from reality.its just that i want to have time for myself. although its kinda nonsense,i dont care.i want to go to a place that nobody will find me and i can be as free as possible,

hahahhaha.escapism??kinda~

hmm currently,..possible solution to this unknown feeling is maybe...i need something interesting to happen in my life right now!

shuush!!dont say IB! yes, IB is interesting..so interesting to the point that i cant help but to always think about my beloved IB life..aigoo.hahah :)

Ya Allah, Kau tolonglah hamba Mu ini. beri pedoman kepada diriku supaya aku tidak berasa kekosongan lagi. ceriakan diriku Ya Allah :) amin..

huhuhu lets hope that something interesting will occur in my life soon..lau x, i boleh mati kebosanan dgn study je ni~

hehehe till we meet again,taa~ :)

thanks fendi :)

bloggy,i told u earlier that i got to msk final for syarahan kn?

well, last week was the competition.

heheheh my title is ketamadunan pasak keamanan.

fendi helped A LOT!!!!

thanks to him r i dpt built my courage to go up there and talked in front of secondary kids yang i xbrapa suka~hahah

fendi mmg ajar sehabis baik.even the way i bce pantun pun, dye ajar.

'seroja hutan subur di Bentan.

diteman rerama terbang ceria

bahtera aman dibadai cabaran

di tangan kita nasib bahtera'

mmg try my best to dptkn his lenggok pantun.every morning dgr his voice bce pantun yg i recorded through my phone.hahahah mcm agak..pelik~hahahahahha

tried my best to hafal mati-matian.hope sgt x cuak n gugup atas stage.hahah even practiced dgn angah although kitorg competed against each other gak.hahah

on the day, i ws so nervous sbb bygkn i'm the first one to go n talk.mst r cuak.

rse mcm nk tarik diri je..tp maruah babe!!hahah egoistic i am.

mse tu mmg buat je.yg penting cpt habis.sgt glad sbb x gagap n nmpk smooth.heheheh

then the rest pun gave their speeches.

mybe Allah mudahkan perjalanan hidup isha.Alhamdulillah sgt sbb dpt 1st.mmg unexpected giler.hahahahha dh r mse price giving ceremony tertukar hadiah dpt yg third.adoi~klaka plak :)

alhamdulillah Allah berpihak pada isha. walupun i'm not that good, Allah ttp tolong isha.mybe sbb isha btul2 doa.alhamdulillah.terima kasih Ya Allah :)

isha lega semua dh abis.now ni kene focus on IB.insyaAllah:) nk fly!!!

aja aja fighting!! nisha fighting!!!woot woot!!

purple tulip!

cintaku berputik

walaupun hanya semalam kita kenali

bicaramu menyentuh hati

tiada lagi kesedihan di hati ini

tapi ku tak pasti

apa kau rasai

mungkin semua ini hanya mimpi

*cintaku di taman

penuh dengan warna

hatiku bertanya dimanakah dia

kerana ku petik satu

tulip berwarna ungu

hanya untukmu,sayangku~

pada malam itu

lidahku kelu badanku menjadi kaku

oh mata bertentangan mata

jantung berdegup hatiku rasa gembira

tapi aku malu

senyumanmu itu

memanah hati menusuk kalbu

repeat *

walaupun hanya semalam kenali

tetapi hatiku masih berkata ku tak pasti

bila kau meluahkan

kata yang ku impikan

cinta kita mula mekar sempurna

repeat*

hanya untukmu,sayangku~

credit to my beloved housemates for such an awesome song. they said that this song is specifically wrote for me because they know what is happening in my heart right now~

teehee~saranghae !

about this blog~

i will never delete this blog.

this blog is too precious for me to delete it.

so,don't worry k?

thank you to anyone who actually read this nonsense blog :) hehehe

i appreciate it :)

hmm..teehee :)

hehehhe bloggy!!!!!!!!!!!!

lme x tulis u!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!

many things are happening to me.hahaha tp i rse mcm nk wat bodo je sume bnde.

talked to amirul just now. i told him i've been feeling empty lately.

he gave me three possible reasons for that.

1) i'm too focused on study ...(i dont think this is true..)

2) i dont know what am i doing right now ..(maybe..)

3) i dont know what is the purposes of me doing things ..(most likely..)

he asked me to find purposes in life.haaha hearing that coming from him, makes me feel like an idiot.anyway,thanx for the advice,amirul. :)

oh yeah!! i got to perform my syarahan in assembly because i made it to final!!hehehe

thanx to fendi for helping me. thanx to angah, ayong n atin for supporting me!!

thank to mak,abah,adik2 for sokong akak isha!!hahahah :)

i seriously love u guys :)

doakn isha final nnt ek?

next weekend, angah akn stay kt intec for her friend's open day.atin plak kuar dgn cousin dye kot.amoi blek umh.klau i balek umh,nnt mcm menyusahkan abah n abg rafi plak.hahahaha

tgk r dlu. kalo stay kt umh zu,xpe x?hmm.kite pk dlu~

but i.m seriously feeling empty. i sincerely hope that something big and joyful will happen to me soon.please.... :)

puasa~

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

ble puasa,mst r rse ngantuk.sbr je r hari ni.

smalm abah hantar balik dr taiping ke kota damansara dari pkul 3 ptg smpai 11 mlm

hujan lebat sgt.mata abah pulak xnmpk sgt.dgn 1 wiper tibe2 rosak.isha rse risau sgt.

jd sepanjang perjalanan tu,isha x tidur.ad tidur btol2 first hour je.borak2 dgn abah, so that dye x mengantuk.

we talked about japan's tsunami,super moon,bla bla..

he said that this world dh almost reach its end dh. although there are various articles about the natural disasters that made some scientists believe that the world will meet its end at the end of 2012,we have to believe that no one else knows the exact date of Hari Kiamat but ALLAH S.W.T.

as a Muslim, i should sedar about this thing and keep on improving myself as a Muslim.

actly, i have a dream. i want to buy that cute,handy tafsir using my own money.

i will buy that.insyaAllah :)

lps abah hantar isha balik, unpacked my stuff and wat econs ia and tok essay.

pg td, dpt msg from mak, saying that abah smpai umh pkul 4 pagi.alhamdulillah selamat smpai.

rindu family maa~ :(

hari ni seniors mock exam.harap sgt dorg skor.they study really hard maa~

especially the Petronas scholars.fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insyaAllah sume dpt fly :) amin~

currently...

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online.nk tgk drama sungkyunkwan scandal tp punye la ssh.internet mcm siput maa~

sabar je r..

now ni otak tgh serabai sbnrnya.kene buat ia econs tp article trtinggal kt damansara.nk wat cmne ni.abah plak boleh anta i balik by ahad,malam isnin.

balik ni,kene start model g4.tension.

mst akan dpt result lg.lagi tension.

xnk balik.someone told me that this is just 1/6 of the real IB life.how the heck am i supposed to face the remaining 5/6?

if it is not for my parents and family,i would have just quit.

but nisha,u know u wont and u just cant do that. It is strictly prohibited to give up.try,nisha!

IB lyfe~

another day of IB lyfe just passed.

today is the other 'great' day for i got my physics's test result.

as expected,it was really bad.

i wanted to cry but i just cant.not in front of everybody.

i think the only time i ever cried loudly is in front of atin n pupu.

maybe because their kepala paling sme dgn i.

i felt like my soul has flied away during the physics class n i couldnt understand not even a word that came from mr oliver's mouth.

miss ellie called sabrina. im jealous.i wanted to have that kind of relationship with a teacher too.

but i guess its ok to have a gap with people around you, so that when they leave u,its not that hurt.

i wanted to call my parents but i dont want to bg mak worried bout me.mak,eottoke??

my financial.my damnit financial.arghhh!!! im just going to fast tomorrow~

i wanted to talk to amirul..but he's not here or there.i cant talk to him.he's busy with his own life.i cant expect him to be there for me..for i think that i am nothing to him.

i miss my home.i want to go back.

my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

hello dear bloggyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

its been a very long time right??

i want to talk a lot about my sweet 19 birthday!!!!!!

okiedokie~

my birthday is on 26th of feb <3

and first people yg wished my bfday..............my beloooooooooooovvvvvvvveeeeeeeedddddd housemates!angah,amoi n atin :)

the date,24th of feb...... amoi ad rotaract club's meeting waktu tu,so dye pun beli je kek,sbb..almaklumlah kn,we r "supposed" to study for the coming class test.angah asked me to tmn dye washing kt blakang.i pun ikut r.tgk2 amoi was there with a super-duper-crazily-delicious blueberry cake in her hand and they started to sing the birthday song :) uhukuhuk im touched la kn?? XD

the next day which was 25th of feb.i was very happy coz its friday(hari mula cuti r katakan~). n we decided to eat at IKEA and various things happened,hahahahahha!!! I still cn remember clearly the woman's face when she heard me 'moaning'!!hahahahah.ntahapeapentah~

mse on the way back to our house,i got a message asking me to free myself for the next 10 mins because " a miracle is going to happen". I was puzzled coz its from an unknown number and the clock showed that it was 10.20pm.so, i guess its not bout my bfday..then i got a few messages from that number but i ignored them coz i dont know the number~n then i got a call from amirul who is staying somewhere in Aussie right now :) totally happy maa~~~

we talked for a while and he wished me my bfday :)however since i was very happy,i couldnt really concentrated on whatever he was saying at that time and he was kinda sulky..kot..hahahahha!!sory :)

n then after that, tepat pkul 12.05am, i got a a call from my super-awesome mother!!!!hahahahahhahaha!!sgt ske XD

we talked lme r gak.i talked to my sisters n all of them actly sang me a birthday song which nearly moved me to tears.uhukuhukuhuk :)n then since all of my housemates dah tido,i puntido r awl sbb we worked mcm org giler mse sports day a day before that.i got msgs from pupu!!! and aje!!!!!!! tp i xreply sbb xde creditttttttt ;( itu sgt menyedihkn bg saya~ sy jge dpt msg drpd other transcenders gak!!hehehe miss u guys like hell,babes!!

pukul 1.35am,i got a call.dgn mamainye,i pun picked up the phone with a sexy-rocker's voice~(lame nisha,lame~)..n then a guy's voice entered my ear.he started to talked about 'do u know me?im the handsomest person in the world.bla bla bla~' n then i tye spe?rpe2nye ehsan-kun!!hhahahah

he played a bfday song using rul's guitar!!!!!!!!!wuargh,i mmg ske sgt la kn ble ad guy main gitar just for me~awww!haha XD n then i tido.zzzz

the day.i was left alone in the house for angah g jmpe her bestfriend,dayang;atin mkn2 dgn family n amoi g kluar mkn.i stayed at home for i am too lazy to move and (kononnya) nk study.hahah padahal habuk pun tarak~ dorg balek n we talked about their outings.bla bla bla. n then prizey giving ceremony!!!!!!!!!sy sgt ske!!!!amoi bg nasi goreng kampung,milo ais,n a packet of 3-in-1 milo!!!xboleh blah~hahahah tq dear!!angah plak bg a very cute orange nametag,purple pen n rm10's topup!!hhahahah!time kseh syg!atin bg bracelet yg sgt cun,jewelry's case yg sgt cun jge n she wrote me a new song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SGT SKE!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanx adeq :)

thanx guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!really appreciated it XD

while i was buzy thanking everyone for wishing my bfday on fb and phone and watching my beloved yongseo couple jjang!!!!!, atin came to me and asked me to teman her g umh zu for she borrowed something from zu,i pun dgn agk berat hati utk meninggalkan laptop,after dh g toilet dlu~pkai tdg and jacket n tunggu atin yg tgh siap2 gak.n then tetibe je bunyi loceng umh,'dingdongdingdong' repeatedly!!mcm ribut taufan je~i saw atin an amoi tgk luar n they said the stalkers kot. (lol) i amik kunci nk bkk pintu sbb blank,atin suruh n amoi standby kt belakang dgn penyodok smph.i bkk xde org,ble nk tutup blek je,"HAH!!!" trkezut beta.the beloved seniors were there XD i saw atin grinning n i know that this is the surprise.hahahahahha we laughed alot they gave mcd's food as bfday prezzie!heheheh :) i sincerely thank izzu, fudding, fendi n zu for the surprise.walaupun jntungku hampir trcabut ble dgr their 'HAH!!' earlier :)

:) sy mengucapkan jutaan berzillionan terima kasih for making my sweet 19 this sweet :)

thank you <3

love!

annyeong!!

hahahahha

look at the title. what does it tell u?

hahahah basically now, i want to write about love :)

ok, honestly i've never been in a relationship before.

but i do know the feeling of loving someone.

jujur :)

dear blog!!!

hahahahhaha

sorrry :( its been a really long time since i last came to this blog

hahahahha!n when i checked it, i realised that i dont have any follower~

hahahaha adoyai ~

ini agk menyedihkan ya.

jujur i ckp i agk happy with this fact because i know that i can truly express myself in here because there will be no one yg i know that read this my so-called diary.

malu :)

hahahahahahha

ini mmg pengakuan jujur sy XD

new diary?

annyong!!!!

hahahahahahahaha!

i just posted a post saying that i'm gonna use this blog as my so-called-diary right?

hahahahaha now i'm using it~

currently feeling so empty.

don't know why..

hahahahah maybe its because i'm lonely?

new life

hi blog!!!! its been a super duper long time!!!

i really2 miss you :)

currently as an IB student, my life is a very super duper hectic life one =.=

lots of things happened

n i hope that this blog can act as my diary too

i ad byk stories to tell you

i seriously think that this blog is the best place where i can tell everything that have been inside my heart for so long~

seriously blog, i miss u!!